Saturday, January 12, 2008
My heart is aching! It's hurting real bad. Yet, I don't know how to express myself. I have been wanting to clear everything off my mind, but I don't know where should I start.
Tell me what to do!
I cry every night and drown myself with alcohol. This is only to keep myself off temporary. The next day, I felt stupid doing this, but at night, I will do this again. Oh, what the hell?! This sounds so DRAMA-MA-MA!
On Wednesday, I clubbed with Mango, SoonWee and Gabriel at Phuture. Graveyard+Long Island tea, and my mind went blank.
On Thursday, I was drinking with Calvin & campmates at BoatQuay. Martell throughout the night.
On Friday (just now), I was invited to join Andee and friends for a potluck over at his friend's place at St Patrick's Road. (No drinks. Mahjonggggggggggg!)
Very very very bad!
Just now before I left home, Daddy said,"Wah, so many days never see you ah?! Going out ah?" My heart aches hearing him say that. Sigh sigh sigh!
I have been holding back my tears.
9:55 PM